I'm really thankful for this glimpse of warmth in the nasty environment i've gotten myself into. Thank you for making these few days much more bearable. I feel like I really don't deserve you doing the things you do. But at the same time, i'm glad you do so because it's mainly what gets me throught this rut.

Anyway, to sidetrack, how can someone be so ugly, smelly, and yet insanely nasty all at the same time? I sound inhumane, but the way she treats me is way too overboard. She does not have a right to hate me for a decision she made. I even questioned her if she was sure and she justified it with 101 reasons and now, because she changed her mind it starts becoming my problem that I took over? Besides, I did absolutely nothing at all because when it comes to stuff like these, all I want to do is fade in the background. It's not that I even like my position now. It totally makes no sense that i'm being treated like crap for this, especially by her omg.