Revisiting this rusty space. A private space for my thoughts now. Ploughed through all my previous posts, and all I can say is, I really do miss the innocence and optimism I used to have. I probably have already given up to the fact that things will stay this way for a while. I hate it and it consumes me, plagues my thoughts every second, but I really am beyond helpless.

That aside, I just wanna say how much more I've grown to be appreciative of my dad. Past entries on him have been nothing but negative and I guess I just failed to see all the good in him. No one is perfect, I kept harping on the one thing I'd like him to change and the fact that he's so much closer to my sister, but really I'm secretly proud of his kind heartedness, and love for all us, especially his own mother. Today, for our reunion dinner, he quietly left all the abalone for us. It's a tiny gesture, but it means a lot. Thank you di. I'll try to be a better daughter (especially by clearing all mods this year).

I fucking hate school. The lecturers, the location, the people and my one helluva timetable. It's only day 3 and I feel like dying :(

Lucky lucky, you're so lucky

My problems are Not part of a passing phase.

Am picture blogging at http://pinkposie.tumblr.com/ (tumblr is like freaking narnia wooo). But I missed this space. Reading my past entries, i've kinda gained some insight on why some things turned out the way they are. Everything seems to make more sense now. I've missed the past, yes, without a doubt. It's like i've met new people, and seen a whole lot more in the past few months, and that makes me miss the simplicity and genuinity of people I once knew. Really.

That aside. Work at Frolick for the past 6 months has been awesome. Lotsa love for amalie, jeralyn, sam, shuning, sheryl and the older batches of lovelies. But now, it feels like a drag. With all the frolitics and new people coming in and old girls leaving :'( Hate changes. Why do all good things have to come to an end in my life? Sigh.

Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love

Woooo i've got this song stuck in my head now

I've never said this, but thank god for friends who teach me spontaneity and positivity.

Emo nemo. To hell with boys. Those who won't leave us alone, and those whom have left us alone for too long.

New resolution:

To make better decisions and not turn down or accept people's offers on impulse, especially those that I can't get myself out of.

Grrr so mad with myself.