Resolutions 2010

lose weight (42kg)
new hairstyle
gucci
macbook
stop shopping impulsively
get a (fun) job
dnvers
new friends
maintain friendships
be a better daughter
without hope or agenda
practice responsibility (stop being late)
less hatred, more love
be happy and carefree
read more (decent books, not magazines)
visit a new country
do my best in everything I put my heart into

Let's rock 2010

Today was a day well spent, with the family. Guilty as I am, i've got to admit that i've not gone out with them for months now. Spending time together sorta dissolved the tension i'd always felt at home these days. Which is good.

Man how time flies. It'll be 2010 a mere week later. 3 years since sec school, a year since the college days, which honestly feels just like yesterday. Seize the day never felt more apt.

There's a fine line between concern and treating me like a kid, feels like the latter. But anyway, finally laid my hands on the iphone! New number, again. Bye to the days where i'm so self-conscious I have to check my messages through the pocket flap, and hi to the tap tap days! I should probrably stop raving bout it, but this phone feels extra special because I bought it with my own money. The first decent phone at least. Wanna stop relying on the parents completely, since they don't give me the freedom that I think someone my age ought to have. I know technically i'm not financially independent, with school fees and all, but for all the other stuff, i'm gonna make sure it's coming out from my own pocket.

Whatever this feeling is, I don't like it at all.

Hate how stores everywhere is flooding with people. I realized the escalator up raffles city always gives me the claustrophobic effect for some strange reason, especially when it's packed like sardines, like everyone going down is literally staring at you. Bah I'm so weird like that. Today I received one of the sweetest things, and gave out one of the stupidest things aka a lighthouse lamp wtf was I thinking.

Miss you

Love this song

$250 poorer in a day, love-hate relationship with topshop, awesome sashimi galorez, happiness for k and v, 2 lightbulbs, iphone friend no.4, anxiety, fitsch, imu, christmas shopping, decisions decisions....

It wasn't until today that I realised, I need to find back my old/own self.

Tmrw tmrw I love you tmrw, you're only a day away *throws confetti!*

Looking forward to........

tues- rachel's coming home
wed- the last day of this shit
iphone
school
a fun job
christmas
dnvers
wakeboarding
f21 @ somerset 313
flea
kbox

Because love, is not a game whereby you can try your luck. You don't simply chase after a girl because you think she might like you enough. I've learned from this, a perfect example whereby first impressions do not count, and where maturity doesn't go in tandem with age at all. I'm sorry I feel this way, but I can't help it.

Who needs gossip magazines when there's http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/

Ok so the other day, my phone(thank god I hadn't gotten the iphone yet!)/ipod almost got stolen again, by the same culprits, exact same scenario. Actually saw my flap lifted up this time, and her sneaky hands hidden under a jacket. It was this close. Really hate myself, because these people should be put behind bars asap and all I could do was stand there looking shocked and terrified. I had the intuition to alert someone only after like 5 seconds but there was this anal salesgirl giving me weird stares, and I really should've ignored her shit. Am still very traumatised by this and I don't think i'll be shopping for groceries alone again. Everyone please take care of your belongings while in the supermarket, because I think it's where these losers find prey. Or maybe it's because I look stupid, but anyway just... beware!

7AM, what am I doing here man?

On a random note, I just created fb, hahaha I know. Loving my new harajuku lovers scent :)

"Terrorism that’s Personal" by Nicholas D.Kristof

I cringed when I first saw the article. But I really applaud the courage of these women. Made our problems look almost insignificant compared to theirs. Everyone around is in the pursuit of happiness, fame, wealth but what we don't realise is that what some people at the other side of the world prays for is the freedom we easily take for granted. Life is unfair, and society may be overly judgemental. But i'll try to remember that though my life may not always be peachy pink, i'm blessed enough :)

Looking at all the pretty girls is making me feel soooo crappy. Why can't I lay off food, just for a few days. It's doing shit to me man.

And when you say that, all it does is make me feel guilty and self-conscious, because I don't even deserve any of it at all. I am not being paranoid, just don't want to feel any sense of disappointment.