Revisiting this rusty space. A private space for my thoughts now. Ploughed through all my previous posts, and all I can say is, I really do miss the innocence and optimism I used to have. I probably have already given up to the fact that things will stay this way for a while. I hate it and it consumes me, plagues my thoughts every second, but I really am beyond helpless.

That aside, I just wanna say how much more I've grown to be appreciative of my dad. Past entries on him have been nothing but negative and I guess I just failed to see all the good in him. No one is perfect, I kept harping on the one thing I'd like him to change and the fact that he's so much closer to my sister, but really I'm secretly proud of his kind heartedness, and love for all us, especially his own mother. Today, for our reunion dinner, he quietly left all the abalone for us. It's a tiny gesture, but it means a lot. Thank you di. I'll try to be a better daughter (especially by clearing all mods this year).